athwart

Everything goes athwart (with me).

事事不如意。

It is thus that, athwart the cloud which formed about him, when all his hopes were extinguished one after the other, M.Mabeuf remained rather puerilely, but profoundly serene.

马白夫先生便是这样，他在处境日益黯淡、希望一一消失下心境却仍宁静如初，这点稚气，但很固执。