wifehood

Although Olga loved Jack, that image of wifehood (hers, not his) was so noxious that subconsciously she knew she couldn't sustain it.

虽然Olga爱Jack,但是这种（她产生而不是他产生的）妻子形象太有毒害性，以至于在潜意识里自己道无法维系下去。